Being Kickass is really about being the best version of myself that I can be. This is a big, broad, sweeping statement that makes me sound kind of cliche. The truth is, all I want in life is to be . . . me. Ideal me works in a creative field were my schedule is flexible and just being myself is resume enough. In this perfect world I influence people and have an extensive group of friends who are from all walks of life. Ideal me shops at the market in the morning, works a couple of hours in the afternoon, meets friends for coffee, and then heads back home to make dinner for family with the food that I grew in my own garden. I know that this lifestyle does exist. I know that it isn't all butterflies and unicorns. Here is the question. How? I am not sure.
Right now I spend an ungodly amount of time waffling. It starts in the morning with, "I am going to be a Graphic Designer". At lunch I am not so sure Graphic Design offers the kind of flexibility I am looking for, maybe I should focus on being a writer. By dinner I am thinking,"Well sure everybody wants to be a writer, but is that realistic?". Then I decide I should go back to school and get a "real job". No more than five minutes later I am repulsed by that idea. By the end of the night I haven't actually made any progress but instead given myself a headache.
I just need to DO! Stop thinking so damn much and do something, anything. That is what this blog is about being someone who does. So here we are I am 13,500 words into a novel. I spend hours a week looking for Graphic Design jobs. I work nearly full time. And then I am still trying to stay on top of my weight loss goals. I feel a little like I am running at full speed on a treadmill. Sure I am exhausted but I haven't moved forward an inch.
I have made some strides. Thomas and I did move to Seattle as promised. I am down 25 lbs. and still losing, slowly, but none the less. I feel like there are more opportunities here which is reassuring but I want some promise that everything will be ok.
What will I do? More of everything. When I want to paint I will paint. When I want to write I will write. I will be successful come hell or high water.
About Me
- Savannah!
- I am a 23 years old and recently married to the best man in the world, Tom. I am happy and content but I am always on a mission. I want the ultimate career and life and so I am jumping in feet first to my future. Looking forward to being awesome at everything one blog at a time.
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ReplyDeleteThank you Bill for reading my blog! I miss you and your mustache.
ReplyDeleteNo matter what you want to do you will be amazing at it! I know it can be tough not to know what to do, but I really do believe you can have the life that you want. You are amazingly talented and fun and you will get there in time. Just have faith in yourself and the path you are taking!
ReplyDeleteYou have it deep inside you to do whatever you want to do and be whatever you want to be. The GREAT part about you is you are already there....Right where you need to be at this point in your life. Changes are going to come your way .Keep striving but pat yourself on the back for being successful in your life RIGHT NOW! I LOVE you! You are amazing to me.
ReplyDeleteJill thank you so much you are always so encouraging and I know that Seattle will open new doors for me that I hadn't expected. I look forward to seeing where it leads.
ReplyDeleteMom what more can I ask for? I have the perfect family who has helped me be able to strive for great things. I am so lucky to have such a supportive group of people around me. :)
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